I Dont Like Who I Was Then

Intro: x2 Tossed around like sea glass and you rounded out my edges. I'll feel better when the headaches go away. I got a scar across my forehead, turning purple in the cold From a night at Shore Memorial. I was 16 and afraid. Turned away, like I'm working baby face Out of Mid-South in the 80's. I kept a blade hidden in my wrist tape. I think I'm growing into someone you could trust. I want to shoulder the weight until my back breaks, I want to run until my lungs give up. If I could manage not to fuck this up. If I could manage not to fuck this up. Y I think enough is enough. Hidden in the tall grass in the naked light of day, I put my past-self in the ground. I've been dancing on the grave. I'm not the person that I was then, I'm tearing him away. I was bitter. I was careless. I was 19 and afraid But you deserved more from me. I don't know why I would say those things. But you deserved more from me and I'm trying every day. I think I'm growing into someone you could trust. I want to shoulder the weight until my back breaks, I want to run until my lungs give up. If I could manage not to fuck this up. If I could manage not to fuck this up. Y I think enough is enough. (Palm muted) You left me walking in circles. You were a shot in the dark. You were the baby teeth I buried. You were the sounds of distant cars. (End palm muted) You left me walking in circles. You were a shot in the dark. You were the banner that says "No One" That I tattooed across my heart. You left me walking in circles. You were a shot in the dark. You're scattered like ashes across every song that I write. You're where the light pollution starts. I think I'm growing into someone you could trust. I want to shoulder the weight until my back breaks, I want to run until my lungs give up. If I could manage not to fuck this up. If I could manage not to fuck this up. Y I think enough is enough.