I Won't Say That I'm Okay

Intro: Verse: I won't hold my tongue. I'm not okay without you here. I guess what's done is done. I just feel so exposed without you near. BREAK: And I won't say that I'm okay, 'Cause you taught me not to lie, So know that I'll miss you everyday. Pre-Chorus You always taught me to be good, And always do my best to be selfless But I know that God is holding you And I am so damn jealous, 'Cause I miss your arms around me And the way you make me laugh. Now I'm stuck inside this prison that says You're never coming back. So I'm sitting in my room As I try to write this song. I'm so sorry that it's not good enough. It's just that everything seems wrong, And I keep bursting into tears Because the pain won't go away, Because the father took my best friend And said she cannot come out to play Anymore. REFRAIN: I won't hold my tongue. I'm not okay without you here. I won't hold my tongue. I'm not okay without you here. I won't hold my tongue. I'm not okay without you here. Verse: I guess what's done is done. I just feel so exposed without you near. BREAK: And I won't say that I'm okay, 'Cause you taught me not to lie, So know that I'll miss you everyday. Pre-Chorus You always taught me to be good, And always do my best to be selfless But I know that God is holding you And I am so damn jealous, 'Cause I miss your arms around me And the way you make me laugh. And now I'm stuck inside this prison that says You're never coming back. And now I'm sitting in my room As I try to write this song. I'm so sorry that it's not good enough. It's just that everything seems wrong, But I will try my best to be good So I can pay my way, Straight through the pearly gates Into your arms so we can play Once more. SPOKEN OUTRO: (play over and over until end) Grandma, Uh, I love God with all my heart And uh, The only reason that isn't Stated in my life is because of you And I really don't understand it God That you introduced me to What would take you away so fast When you were the only person That ever understood a thing I ever said And I really don't understand How to deal with this anymore And, I'm just really not okay with this And I miss you and I understand you're in heaven But I don't want to be selfish I don't want you to be in heaven I want you to be back down here I don't want you to be there I want you to be here What am I supposed to do now fade out... That's all I'm asking