Thirty

Intro verse 1 There was a time When you put your hand on the small of my back I was surprised that you touched me like that But there in your hand was a current of life I could hardly stand I stayed still And I didn't mention it Or if I did, I made some joke of it It was strange how I could feel so sane So plain when you're around verse 2 And unbidden to me There it rose, the fantasy Colored rose and easy Yeah, I could see it so simple, unsubtle Impossible, clearly And strange Far and as close as a mountain range On the horizon driving all day There I was, so sane So plain after everything verse 3 Gas came down From a buck-twenty The joke was how It broke the economy anyhow The dollar was down But my friends opened businesses There were new children And again, I didn't get married I wasn't close to my family And my dad was raising a child in Nairobi She was three now, he told me verse 4 Gas stations I laughed in I noticed fucking everything The light, the reflections Different languages, your expressions We would fall down laughing Effervescent And all over nothing, all over nothing Just as though It was a joke my whole life through All of the pain and sorrow I knew All of the tears that had fallen from my eyes I can't say why We walked in the park Under the shade I avoided your eyes I was ashamed of my own mind No SSRIs My day is dark as your night Verse 5 Oh, you got The kindest of eyes I cannot help but notice sometimes But you know, as do I I cannot look twice without falling right Into the sweet and the tender line between Something I can and can never be And just then an ambulance Passed on the street And you took my arm reflexively That was the year I was thirty That was the year you were thirty-one That was the year that we lost, or we won That was the year I was thirty That was the year you were thirty-one That was the year that we lost, or we won