Bigger On The Inside

Intro: You’d think I’d shot their children From the way that they are talking And there’s no point in responding ‘Cause it will not make them stop. And I am tired of explaining And of seeing so much hating In the very same safe havens Where I used to just see helping I’ve been drunk and skipping dinner Eating skin from off my fingers And I tried to call my brother But he no longer exists I keep forgetting to remember That he would have been much prouder If he saw me shake these insults off Instead of getting bitter I am bigger on the inside But you have to come inside to see me Otherwise you’re only hating Other people’s low-res copies You’d think I’d learn my lesson From the way they keep on testing My capacity for pain And my resolve to not get violent But though my skin is thickened Certain spots can still be got in It is typically human of me Thinking I am different To friends hooked up to hospital Machines, two kinds of cancer And there is no better place than from this Waiting room to answer The French kid who wrote an e-mail To the website late last night His father raped him and he’s scared He asked me “How do you keep fighting?" And the truth is I don’t know I think it’s funny that he asked me ‘Cause I don’t feel like a fighter lately I am too unhappy You are bigger on the inside But your father cannot see You need to tell someone, be strong And somewhere some dumb rockstar truly loves you. You’d think I’d get perspective From my few years by the bedside It is difficult to see the ones I Love so close to death All their infections and procedures And the will to live at all in question Can I not accept that my own Problems are so small? You took my hand when you woke up I had been crying in the darkness We all die alone but I am so, so glad that you are here You whispered “We are so much bigger on the inside, you, me, everybody Some day when you’re lying where I am, you’ll finally get it truly" We are so much bigger Than another one can ever see Trying is the point of life So don’t stop trying Promise me.